I'm back.

Total Bilirubin - 4.0 (very high, but normal for me)
Whities - 3,800 (low for you, good for me)
Hemoglobin - 14.6 (normal!)
Hematacrit - 40.3(normal!)
Platelets - 167,000 (normal!)
ANC - 1,800 (low for you, good for me)

Chest Xray - normal

Good counts and good diagnostics. Been having some problems sleeping/breathing for the past three weeks, went to see Dr. Cripe to get to the bottom of it.

His recommendation. Slow down. Take some time. Relax.

I'm going to try and do this. Been a wild couple weeks in my personal and work life, starting to wonder if it has taken a toll on my physical health. I have good people around me but I seem to forget that I can't do it all, all of the time.

It's nice to get some affirmation from the doc and his practitioner (Theresa). My only complaint is that Theresa always makes me cry. She tells me it will be ok (which I know it will) but somewhere between her hug and her soothing tone, I lose it.

Admittedly, its kinda unfair. Here I was in the waiting room with essentially a winning lottery ticket as far as blood cancer's go and I'm still worrying about me. Even today, I'm sitting next to a girl probably 10 years younger than me, hair free with a chest port. Based on what she was saying, I'm betting she was only diagnosed a few months ago (she didn't know the jargon but I understood what she was saying). It's a pretty unfair world we live in - and she was living proof.

I can't imagine working in that place.

Cancer get's you an immediate wave but sometimes you have to work for it. For example, when I went to get my chest xray today - the woman at the counter was really busy and a little unpleasant...until she read my chart and they it was almost like 'oh shit, this guy has enough on his plate and shouldn't have to deal with my angry ass'. She pretty much pulled a 180 and was delightful for the rest of our time together.

Better get moving. Feeling better already now that my counts are solid.